as a matter of fact: self-ish ed.

• i am bad with dates. hardly remember birthdays!


• born in the year of the rooster under the twins sign


• nail biter


• i do not trust the school system. i believe that there are professors out there who guess student's grades.


• optimistic but a worry-wart


• zoom in, zoom out, erase, re-write, review, double check, second glance at my craft projects


• used to be a who-cares kinda girl, as long as i want it, as long as it's fun for me.


• i read sweet valley books and nancy drew mystery case files. the first book i read was nancy drew and the dancing puppet. then it was the sweet valley twins' barnyard battle. my favorite book among the sweet valley twins were the super chillers, the carnival ghost, and the secret of the ruby necklace. i was very lucky, i think, because i was able to read sweet valley saga: the wakefields of sweet valley and the wakefields legacy!


• also read the fear st. series


• sudoku addict at one point


• and i'm so inspired right now, i hope for another take at life but with a new stroke, oh i pray!

143!

Torrential rain in Metro Manila left many parts flooded. We have stayed in Cainta for almost 2 weeks, we were lucky that we were brought back on Friday, else we would have been stuck in flood. We were also spared of high flood in Quirics, thank you Lord.

My doll baby is 143 days old today!


And I finished a layout, adding to the files of "to be printed."

good things and bad ones

i have been losing sense of time. not knowing what day it is, except after watching tv shows. is that a good sign or a bad one? that means i do not think of any deadlines or meeting schedules. is that a good sign or a bad one?

speaking of deadline and tv shows, i watched an episode of jeopardy and found out that deadline was first used as a prison term which meant a line which should not be crossed else, be shot. ahmmm...

and again, speaking of soldiers, today is the anniversary of martial law, which affected Filipino lives, some for better some for worse. and so that means a holiday.

and what is the best holiday? Christmas! Yey, yuletide season is approaching!

and ending my train of thought...

having a break from yoville

i have been addicted with fb applications. i have seriously spent my entire days just playing, ekk! i need help. need to go and rehabilitate myself. *shudder* it is so weird that yoville's widget factory is replaced with sweet's factory... i'll bake the 3 day- cake to help me from logging in and playing. but there is this what to wear game... hmmm.


aside from yoville, and what to wear this is what i do infront of gels- the lappy

At this point in life what is your greatest dream?

To learn letting go of working to have a fabulous life and live a fruitful one instead.

tagged by Shy

On 123

Ecai is 123 days old!

Was able to take some photos of her this morning and am planning to scrap them! Digi and paper. Hmmm... paper? Yes. Was able to start with this and have finished 4 pages of 6x6 los.

This morning we visited her pedia at UST for her monthly checkup and a scheduled vax, this mo. it is pentaxim. She gained weight and added height. And she didn't cry when vax was injected... Heavens... no scream, no tear, nothing! Just a little twitch in her eye.

And here we are on 123!

Dressing up

Somebody had a good night's sleep. Had Ecai for a few shots but all are good! She was well behaved and cooperated while I put the dresses on her. I was just supposed to try and see if they fit her but she was so prim that I got the chance to take the camera out.

It is always hard to get her to smile when she sees the camera. Yes, she seems to know that either a camera or a phone camera is aiming at her. We started good.

And she got a bit grouchy...


That was what I thought, but lo and behold, was still able to go for a third dress...


Until someone got sleepy...

and can't help it.

Received a Tag

I have been tagged. And to return the favor, this time I will try to follow the rules.

The Rules:
1. Try to make a post just like this one and mention this process.
2. From the list of blog sites below remove the number 1 and move the rest in the list 1 step higher (i. e number 2 becomes number 1, and so on). Add your blog name in the 5th position. Don't forget to copy the links.

My Life Story
Chuchie's Hideaway
UtotMoPink
WaRpeD & TwIsTeD
The Esquared Life

List at most five of your friends blogsite here with link and inform them of this post and ask them to do the same.

In my case, I only have three links:
My Lil' Spot of Sunshine
Know Me Better
Sweet n Chic

Thanks slickchick for tagging me.

famil-e

One of our first picture as a family, but def my fave.

We are a family born in the month of May, although I am under a different sign. Our first names has 6 letters and starts and ends with an e. Similarities are there but differences will arise, we hope that we can surpass them all with God's grace.

flu week

We are all hit with flu. Poor little doll baby is having a difficult time sleeping. Had her checked up last thursday morning. To ease her nose congestion, she was prescribed with a salt solution drops and to use a nebulizer. Poor thing. But that makes her comfortable.

She was so moody. She wails when she wants to be held and she cries with tears quietly when noone is paying her some attention. But now she is a bit well, she is back to her cute sweet little self.

credits: paper: mco bohemian summer, elements: weeds and wildflowers hidden garden

I'm on FB!

I know it's way too late for a shoutout like that. I ignored FB for the longest time, and now that I am in, there are lots of catching up to do. Not only with connecting with friends, don't get me wrong Friendster has kept me and will keep me connected, but the games in FB will get you addicted. I only am fond with one at the moment, YoVille. Wow, visiting other people's pad made me drool. Ganda! I like Glaiza's and Sheila's so far. Glaiza's is super complete, I didn't say she's addicted to it, I only said that all her rooms are super complete and overly super nice. =) Playing the game made me miss Dollwar. It is so sad that the site is no longer available.

Uh oh, my Ecs is waking up again. She has been waking up for the slightest noise. But she smiles more often, cooes more often. We now play together! I do the talking and singing and miming, all she does is smile, and that is enough to make my day.

Love my doll baby.

strolling at the park

Ecai turned 3 months old last Aug 8. We originally planned to celebrate at Luneta Park, inviting some relatives and some friends. But too bad, it rained the entire week, typhoon kiko ravaged.

Anyway, when the sun looked like it is going to shine we still went, Ecai, Inay, Jut and I. Miss you Mumu. We went and expected to stay by the bay. Err, the Oceanarium was there! No more seaside! I didn't know. So did Jut. I was in Singapore and Jut was in UK and Inay was err, spending her time at home or malling with Ate Ana, Glai, Tita Ne and Paolo. So we ended up just strolling.

Flags were at half-mast, symbolic respect for the death of former President Aquino.



The wind was gusty. My hair was everywhere.


There was a little drizzle before we went home. And off again to go to see Mausi. Too many pics, I'll load some when I have some more free time.

Ciao for now.

Salamat, President Cory

Sorrow is in the air. Today is the internment of the 11th president of the Philippines and mother of Philippine democracy, Cory Aquino.

Gratitude will always be there for her. She has made every Filipino proud. Watching the news, I was amazed to how many lives she has touched. And how she lifted everything to God. Heaven must really love her, the weather is gloomy and rain is drizzling, like the sky is shedding tears.

People lined the streets to pay last respect. She, a very gentle and calm natured person, could ignite the hearts of thousands, reaching out to any class or status. Her legacy will leave on...

harry made me go solo, not once but twice

It was the movie. I watched Harry Potter's 5th and latest movie alone. I watched both on the first day on the first MF. It was easier, not that hard to spot a seat for one.

Am not one of those who got disappointed with the latest movie. In fact, I am pretty much pleased. When I read the book, it was a sad sad story. But when I watched the movie, I saw the light and young side of the lead characters, their lines were young and witty. The effects were so nice. I would never have thought that the muggle's bridge was destroyed like that. Just that there were really some scenes that if I remember correctly, didn't happen that way.

Nothing more, just posted my fondness,errr love for HP series.

a dream is a wish your heart made

I believe that dreams come true. And that they are whispers of the heart.

As I watch my baby sleep, I wonder what her dreams are about. She smiles, and now she also frowns. Inay told me that this is because angels are playing with her. Anymore reasons?

With Ecai's sleeping cycle, she sleeps almost the entire morning. Wakes up to feed, that is every two hours. She then wakes up at 10pm and will sleep at past 1am. And when awake, if she's in a good mood, she now knows how to interact, can you believe she already laughed at asel's and jut's funny faces and sounds. And oh, she follows my lead when we invite poop.

Love my baby girl.

PS. I received a blog award from Gwacie. She's a girltalker and a talented digiscrapper. (Sori sis, I am not able to follow the rules of the award.) People, head on to her blog, her layouts are something not to be missed. Thanks again Gwacie

my girl

Ecai is turning 3 mos, can you believe it? I do. I am guilty for wishing that she grow up a wee-bit faster.

Took her pictures some time ago and was only able to make this layout so far. Elements are from some kits I downloaded over a year ago.

Alphas: Art Nation

Papers: Park Avenue, Heart

Elements: SS by Lisa, Hidden Garden

When she turned one month, her hand found its way to her mouth. I go crazy whenever I see her sucking her thumb, nibbling her fingers, and even gnawing her fists and arms! I head over and googled,err, yahoo fanatic here, so I yahooed remedies for her addiction. I found relief when I read that this is a childs' way of finding comfort by their own. So from now on, let her be.

she holds my heart

Ecai is growing up, she's putting on weight and adding on length. She's wiggly and cooes and ahhs and demands to be held all the time, which of course, stresses me out. It's tiring specially when she wakes up every two hrs for milk, then have to burp her and dance her to sleep again. I am not complaining, just sharing. No right to complain specially when I have all the help of my mother and mother in law. wink wink. Can't wait for my baby to grow up. We can do things together like scrapbooking, I'm not selfish so I can share my supplies as long as she can share hers. Ha ha ha. But will we share the same interests? Hope so, besides, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

Finally had the time to finish a digi layout. I have started this one like, saturday and only finished it now, a wednesday. Whoa, 4 days... aw.

and if the shoe doesn't fit?

The transition is not easy. Deciding to stay at home and be a mum is a breeze but standing by it and doing the chores is a roller coaster ride. My back aches, my legs and shoulder blades feel sore, and I cannot do any of my hobbies at all, no scrapbooking, no digiscrapbooking either, no learning photography, no cross stitching, and no time to start beading. No free time, most meals I do not enjoy, bath time is a rush, and sleeping soundly is currently just a thought. Office work sounds like a vacation. Whining and complaining.

When she cries and screams at me, oh well, yeah she does scream at me and she is only two months old, I feel like giving up and just sleep the crying off. But the first time that she looked at me and smiled after I said hi to her, wow, that would be something to really look forward to. How could I forget the reason why I quit my job? I resigned just to let my daughter feel that I will be there for her. Of course working moms won't agree, but for me, I want my daughter to look for me when she cries, go to me when she has some stories to tell, chooses to spend her spare time with me, and delight in my presence. And for me this all starts asap. How can I stop her cries if I do not understand what hurts and upsets her? How can we share stories if I lose the time to listen to her? How can we enjoy spending time together if we have outgrown each other? How can she delight in my presence if she already feels I won't make any difference at all? So I am a SAHM. I am very lucky that I have a husband who supports what I want. And very blessed that he wants it too.

So now that she is two months, she stays close when I cuddle her at night. And she sleeps on top of me, contentedly. She falls back to sleep when she hears my humming, well sometimes. She amazes me. For now, I am okay with a few minutes for all (with stress) of my hobbies.

And if the shoe doesn't fit? I'll try on a pair of sneakers or flip flops. Or I can walk motherhood with bare feet. All with God's grace.

Cheers to all moms and moms-to-be!

it has been 3 weeks

and forever with regards to blogging.

well, it was 3 weeks since i gave birth! the experience was not quite what i expected it to be. i thought it would be easy... just push, 1...2...3, deep breath, etc and baby will be out. it was so different for me.

on may 07 at 7am, i woke up feeling i needed to pee. but as i sat up, i felt i couldn't hold it much longer, and when i stood up, water trickled. i told my inay, i think i wet the bed, but she told me, take a bath and go call your doctor. i called the doctor and told her that i am not sure if it was my water bag that broke. she told me to go to the hospital and she'll meet me at the delivery room. at 8am, i was changing to a hospital gown not believing that i am about to give birth. i was only 1 cm dilated but since my water bag broke and that means i was prone to infection, i was not allowed to go out of the room anymore. some pregnant ladies in the delivery room were already 4cm but they can choose to leave if they wanted to. iv was administered and a medicine that would help me dilate. not sure of the time, but they have to inject magnesium sulfate because my blood pressure was getting high, one thru iv, and 20cc to be injected on each butt cheek. aw. the one thru the iv was really hot. resident doctors maximized the aircon, but i felt hot with fever, my palms were hot, my feet, my back... but the injections were worse. i do not dream of having butt augmentation anymore! butt was sore, felt like i underwent fraternity initiation and was paddled on my butt big time. doctors asked me if my contractions were painful, i said no, my butt is.

at 5cm, still not much pain, can still smile. but hey, i cried for epidural! anesthesiologist was stuck in traffic... know why? typhoon emong hits manila! aw. right after epi, ie was at 9cm! i have every right to claim that i endured the pain upto 9cm! this was at 8:30 pm. i was transferred to delivery room, waiting for the baby.

we reached 11:30 pm, baby doesn't descend, and doctor noted that baby's heart rate changed, instead of risking it with a normal delivery, was rushed to emergency cs. baby girl was out by 12:03am, may 08, 2009.
baby was born early, 37 weeks. almost everyone predicted that she'll be big since i have grown to 163lbs. baby weight is 5.11 lbs and 47 cm. we stayed at the hospital for 7 days because of my bp. my feet were still swollen even after giving birth, water retention.

till now i am on maintaining medication for my bp and have a follow up checkup with the cardiologist. i weigh 130 lbs and she weighs 9lbs. delivering a baby may not be what i expected, having her is an exhilarating ride. glad to have my dimpled bundle... eilise caitlin joy

random ramblings

...because I have nothing, err.. I don't want to do anything.

• I am so lazy... what I do when I open my eyes in the morning, stretch and say, "oh, it's morning." Then I close my eyes and snooze for another 2 hours. And when I finally manage to sit up, I lounge around, run the pc, surf the net, open a magazine, look at photos and finally, begin a normal-responsible day.
• Ohh, today is the birthday of my Lola who passed away almost 21 yrs ago. She took care of me until she can, she brought me to school, would wake me up... and oh oh, I remember the first thing I would do when I open my eyes then, I would scream "Lola." I wouldn't move until I hear her say, "Baba na." And won't go down the stairs until I see her. Then I would open the TV and watch "Batibot" and the lounge around scratching my head. Hahaha, I am still doing the same routine. Dang!
• I know this should change and it will be sooner than I might've thought.
• I couldn't use shears, not allowed to thread, oh man, what to do? I really like crafts, be it cross stitching, anything with paper, now I got some clay but not getting the hang of it, use glue, color, paint, but I am limited as of now, so all I do is digital. Oh, I would love to learn how to sew.
• God blessed me so I want to make the best of it.

Like Sugar

I love papers! And lines. I think that even if I do the traditional scrapping, I will end up stamping, doodling, and use papers!

I remember when I was in elementary, I would only buy snack foods for lunch. The saved money and saved lunch time, I all spend at the local bookstore. Ogling at stationaries and cards and notebooks. I think I prefer texture than print. I like simplicity in anything... errr, sometimes that changes, only sometimes.I like notes to be neat. I usually rewrite notes, oh, that means that I am guilty of de-forestation. That leaves me with a question... are paper still produced with cutting down trees?

On New Year's Day

Botanical Garden

...with anticipation

welcome 2009!

Attended the 8:30am mass at Blessed Sacrament and then the rest of the morning was spent at Botanical Garden. Had 300 shots... err, that's because Euge takes photos in burst mode. And most of the photos are not of us... They are of the fish, the turtles, the swans and the flowers. =) Didn't even brought a tripod! So there was great difficulty in having a picture together. Good thing there is the reference object, you know what I mean! A couple minus a tripod plus reference object equals...
Tada!! Two separate pics in one full body shot. =) I will have to wait for the weekend before I can load some more nice pic of our first date for 2009. Need to tuck in at bed early. Have to work tomorrow, you know. My back aches every morning. I feel sore.

And my New Years' resolution remains the same... to try to stop nail biting! Har Har Har!

And there's always room for extra love.